remember.

Finally I got back all my test papers. I am quite satisfied with the result I get. Although all the subjects I aim for are at least B but most of it did not came true. Some of the numbers make me happy while some of the numbers make me unhappy.

All my results are at the grade between A to C except for one of it. I don't even dare to look at it. When I receive the papers, I just keep it in my fail. I knew the numbers appear in front of the paper will be ugly. I knew I had did badly in this subject since that day I had the test. I did not expect pretty numbers for this subject.
Someone ask whether did I feel sad for it? Actually I lie towards the someone, I do feel unhappy now too. Whenever I think of it, I feel depressed. The feeling is terrible. I know how to do it but I have forgotten. My mind have reformat when I facing the paper. Everything I memories have clear up. Who shall I blame this to? Myself? Blame this to nervousness.

I dint manage to score grade B for all my science subjects but I did not blame myself because I have did all I can. As for bm, I am quite disappointed with my essay. I dint wrote tetapi therefore I only score half the marks. =( Sejauh mana. Arus tinggi. betul........tetapi
As what fishball said, my vocabulary sucx so I dint manage to score A for my est.

Now I only notice that I have admiring my smart classmates from form 2 till now. Always saying that "How good if I have ____ brain then I could did well in my exam."
If my mummy heard this, she will definitely said they did well in their exam it is because they put in a lot of effort in it. This sounds so wrong. It seems I dint put any effort in it. If I really don't want to do well in my exam, what is the purpose of me to study like mad everyday? Don't you think I doesn't want to score like them? I want. I really really want. I desperate for it. But what can I do if I can't answer the questions or I forgotten? It is not all my fault...

You cant just blame me like that. I am helpless too..

POSTED BY Ziin ON Thursday, October 9, 2008 @ 6:30 AM