remember.

While waiting my turn to collect my new IC.
There was a short father-daughter conversation.
Dad: "Do you understand the lessons taught by the lectures?*
Me: "Okay okay."

The truth is I do understand but it just that the question he asked reminds me about my results. I dint even told my parents anything about my results. I dare not. I don't want to break their heart. Maybe the marks allocated on the letter will be a better explanation to them.

Dad: "After this, which university are you going?"
Me: "Not sure yet."
Dad: (Stare at me with one kind) "How could you don't know?"
Me: (Gave him a naughty smile)

Well. Last time I wanted to be a nutrition as all of you knows but now I am confused with my choice. I am stuck within nutrition and psychologist. I don't know which to be. I am afraid I will once again make a wrong decision.

Dad: "Score better result so that you will get scholarship."
Me: (Silent and nodded my head a little)

My heart breaks when I heard this sentences. My result for the this particular course has already been such a failure. I can't imagine how worst will it be in university. I know that my parents put high hopes on me since my brother academic score is much more lower than me. I certain have some pressure on myself. Certainly, I really don't think I have the ability to get scholarships and the probability that I will get it certainly will be low too. It's not that I am going to give up just like. I have promised myself to keep on going and I only could promise you dad that I will try my best to achieve even though I couldn't make it I hope you wont be mad too cause your daughter have do all she can =]

After all, we went there for nothing because the lady told me that my IC have printed but not here yet so I am still stuck with my ugly old IC ><

POSTED BY Ziin ON Tuesday, July 7, 2009 @ 12:30 AM